freakingly.. freak. YES. FREAK.
goddammit! obviously i know no one will ever read this post, thats why i decided to blog about everything for band.
i'm totally upset when i saw the Sec2s, LC and Syafiqah practising drums WITHOUT asking Christine and I. and LC was like saying ' u no need to wait for me. ' as if i'm not a part of percussion. i mean, how can they do that lar? Kumar actually said ' there's 3 drums. u three decide who wants to play. ' yesterday. and in the end? we are not even informed about the damn practise.
what do we get in return? only Syafiqah's ' dont screw up tml' advice.
damn damn damn. NOT THAT WE ARENT HARDWORKING RIGHT, U IDIOTS.
AND YES. I'M FEELING SUPER FCUK UP NOW. BECAUSE I'M A PERSON WHO WANTS ATTENTION. AND I HATE BEING IGNORED. yes, i AM jealous about LC.
why? what's the reason that she's always involved in every performance?
yes, she's good in her skills, but what about ours? i dont believe that we are THAT lousy right?
freak freak freak!

u know i was hoping for Kumar or whoever to call me over just now? when i'm sitting in the Lower Sec's canteen. but goddammit ( i'm sorry, God. ), LC only came towards me to take tissue.
FREAK. u may call me sensitive or what. BUT I HATE BEING IGNORED AS A PERCUSSIONIST. do u guys from my section know how proud i am when i'm playing the drum?
i bet u dont. u are all so used to playing the drum, so its nothing unfamiliar to u. u two are always getting the chance for performances as a drummer? but what about the rest of us?
we are forever hiding behind, playing the Glockenspiel, or other small instruments.
will u two ever say ' heys! u wanna play the drumset? ' ? even if we learnt how to play, WILL U GIVE US A CHANCE TO PERFORM INFRONT OF EVERYONE?
dammit. Kumar is totally horrid too. h-o-r-r-i-d.

i cant stand it. when will we be finally recognised for our efforts? when we are Sec 4?
damn damn damn lar!!!!!!! forget it. i bet we will never be recognised even if we are out of sch.
in their mind, they will only think of the both of them. forget it.
i shall finish up my hw. GODDAMMIT.